The emptiness in me


There was a part within my soul that always found empty. I am clueless. Not knowing what can I do to fill the gap. Yet I tried to put everything that I thought will fit in. Still, I felt nothing close enough to the contentment. Until You came into and ever since that, I know, I have found my true treasure. It is then come a different thirst, need to be quench. Is it Love? Maybe. Is it hatred? perhaps. Whatever it is, it drive me to living a life to the fullness. And till today my question remain the same, Am i living the life to the fullness? Am i content?

I hate the feeling of emptiness. You know it. I know it.  In a way, somehow it is need to be empty. Then, I need to hate it to the most.  And, by Your Grace,  let the hatred then lead me to the True love that I seek. O well… just FYI, it doesn’t feel good at all and of course, hard to receive.

And I still hate it to the most.

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Bizarre Love Triangle

By: Frente.

Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It’s no problem of mine
But it’s a problem I find
Living a life that I can’t leave behind
But there’s no sense in telling me
The wisdom of the fool won’t set you free
But that’s the way that it goes
And it’s what nobody knows
well every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can’t say

I feel fine and I feel good
I’m feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don’t know what to say
Why can’t we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I’m not sure what this could mean
I don’t think you’re what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I’ll never see just what we’re meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can’t say

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And out of nowhere, this song somehow perfect enough to redeem all of this. It’s been play hundred times since yesterday

 

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2 pemikiran pada “The emptiness in me

  1. Dear..
    nikmati kekosongan itu, Dia ingin anda henti sejenak dan menikmati.. Agar kamu tahu bahwa Dia ada untuk mu dan kamu ada untuk Dia.

    Selamat berjuang.. dan pantang menyerah untuk mencariNya

  2. hmmm… baca lirik lagunya…
    jadi inget sesuatu… seseorang…

    “..It’s no problem of mine, but it’s a problem I find.. And it’s what nobody knows,
    well every day my confusion grows..”

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